So this is it?

It has been almost a month I've been in Kuching and there were a lot of things happened to me and I dont know how to handle everything well. I'm trying to keep calm all the time but sometime, I argue and rebels with myself. University life is an upgrade in life where everything seems different. Things that we used to know is suddenly different in another perspective which is kinda bad because we do not know anything at all. I must admit that I miss my home. I miss my family, and I miss free foods. The cafe food are just too expensive and not really delicious. I'd rather eat fired egg with rice. :x




Dewan Kuliah.

Lakeside Cafe.

Desa Ilmu with The Summer in the right!

So for the Pre-University students, we live in the East Campus which is seriously way to different than the West Campus. West Campus got everything! From bowling alley, golf course and even 7-Eleven. And us on the other hand have only one option of cafe that serves the same kind of food everyday. But no worries, Desa Ilmu is not that far as well as The Summer Mall! Summer Mall claimed to have the biggest food court in Sarawak. As for my Saturday opening day trip to The Summer, I must say that only 20% of the stores are open. Yet, I am excited to see them fully occupied. So, as for food lover like moi, you can always head for DI (as we called it) for more variety of foods! p.s: Do try Nasi Ayam Mak Entek!

The girls dorm. Kolej Seroja Blok B.

My daily view, which is awesome! I got to see the clouds and skies!

Kolej Seroja is the only kolej for pre-university students. Its dorm style. Girls have 2 blocks and 4 wings with 4 roommates in each room. But from what I heard, none of the girls have more than 2 people in each room. Just like the boys as well. The room is quite small but it is enough. I think? My room is a trainwreck since I used most of the space. Yes, Im fat, so? Does that even bothers you?

So, being in a new place, you've gotta have friends. You cant live without one and I met a lot of long lost friends and even new ones! Looking forward for more memories to keep and cherish. So here are a few pictures to feast your eyes. And make my post looks longer :3

Angeline and El!

Sofea.

El.

Them gurlies!

The lovely Emma and Isthera (Rara)

 Samantha, and we both didnt noticed that we were photobombed!

Farah and Ferlicia.

Rach Ivyyyyyyyy! Lol, I miss this little bij :')

The Tiger 12 group :'D

Oh yeah, I have this sakai-ness towards brenoverlays effect and 

HELLO FAT CAT!

Till next time people!
x's,
Bryan Marshall.

I'll end your suffering.

I dont know where it went wrong but I knew that it wasnt my mistake. It was yours. I had given you the chance to fix everything but you said you didnt know how to fix everything. You're pretty much screwed. You've played my emotion and my heart. I was the one that loves you, and always standing by your side. Too bad you didnt see any of that. You were too foolish.
I was so freaking dumb to believe in you. There is just something about you that made me pretty sure that we'll have forever. But unlike Bella and Edward, they'll have enternity to love. But ours, forever ended straight away.
I wish I could turn back time and press a pause button. I wanna freeze that moment of us together. I couldnt afford to lose it. Tell me now, tell me you love me. It isnt hard, just say it. Three words, eight letters, say it and I am yours forever.

Sweet Disposition

Do you know that feeling where everything you've planned suddenly falls apart right in front of your eyes as if there were thousands of poker card was arranged as a building, just because of a swish of wind blew it down, everything fell into pieces. Everything went down, your hopes, your dreams, yourself. I am facing that feeling again. I am having my trainwreck moment and I couldn't fight it. But this isn't over.

I've been moving schools so many times just because of people hate me. They detest seeing me. And I don't know why and what's wrong. I believe some people need to have a humanity emotions sometimes. It'll be good if everyone can tag along and play together instead of jerking off each other.

All hell break loose and I am nowhere to be found. I'll try to run away but it will always hunt be down. As my current playlist is on said, Don't Hide Yourself. I'm not going to hide myself. I am going to face this fucked up situation and deal with everything with my middle fingers up to all those haters. I am me, irreplaceable and ironically fucked.

I do wonder,  what if I was bad? Hah, perhaps all of this wouldn't happen. Like my friend would say to me, arrive heart you.  It's a direct translation from a Malay phrase, sampai hati kau.  And that's not going to happen again in a million years. I am a Christian and I know my limits. I had put up with you for a long time now. And I am going to shut you up for good. Invaded you haven't notice, I am from motherfucking Miri.  

Incase you haven't noticed, Miri is a city. And you, look at yourself, pathetic. Just another city girl wannabe. Copying what other people would do, for what? Attention? Please. Go walk around naked and get all the attention you could asked for. You even criticized your own family. You walk around with your big mouth and saying things about your sister. She have her own fucking reputation and dignity, you bitch. You're jealous because she is better than you. You're jealous because she is the apple of your parent's eyes.

Yes, I am not smarter than you. I didn't get straight A's for PMR. So what, I have my own problems and I didn't bother shouting out saying I should get straight A's. I am grateful for my own result as I knew what had happened to me in the past. It's not your business. So scram.

I'm back now. And I am not gonna leave until SPM is over for sure.